1 month

So it has been a month and I have survived. Better than survived, I am doing really well here. This week was the first time since I got here that I really missed being in California. But I have to be honest, I don't if I miss California or knowing that I have so much support in California.

The hardest part of being here is not having a job, so I have to be very careful with the money I spend and what I do. Take today for instance, Juan and I were in the city and there was this charming hat stand. The vendor placed the most perfect hat on my head. In his words, "A hat with a dramatic flare for a girl who likes a touch of the drama." It was beautiful on, but it was $90. When I was employed, that still would have been a lot for me justify, but I might have gotten it (or the $60 everyday version of the hat that was also beautiful) and then figured things out later. So I guess this is teaching me discipline. I don't know. I do know it is stressing me out a bit.

The thing is that with all the stress of not knowing what the future holds, I think I have fallen more in love with Juan. He has been so supportive and so encouraging and so loving. I can't even really put it all into words, but he has been a God-send. I am blessed to have him in my life.

I volunteered for FFFWeek again yesterday. They were having another model casting and I was asked to volunteer again. I had more fun this time and connected with the two other volunteers for the day--LaToya and Tiffany. After the casting we went shopping in the cit for a bit and talked. These seem to be some fun girls. I hope we continue to connect and hang.

So what are my thoughts one month into this adventure--Can't wait for the next month of making NY my home.